Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Pregnancy. A Rant.

So it's been a little while since I've posted but only because there hasn't been anything significant happening lately. I am currently 5 and a half months pregnant and yes, I'm about to vent. You've been warned...

I thought that when this day finally came and I got what I've wanted for so long, I would enjoy every second of it. That being said, it couldn't be farther from the truth. I'm already starting to feel uncomfortable in my daily activities, i.e.: walking, bending over, sleeping, being awake... haha. I'm having pains I never new existed, sleep deprivation which I've never experienced, and anxiety like nothing I've ever known.

I know what you're thinking... "GIRL, you just WAIT until your baby is here!" Okay, okay! I get it! I know I'm not going to be sleeping, I know I'm going to be worried all the time, but that time is not right now. Right now, I'm dealing with these pregnancy issues and I'd appreciate it if you'd just let me be cranky! Thanks! : )

I know that the moment Ally arrives, our lives are going to instantly change forever. I know we're going to experience a love that we didn't even know was possible and I want that so badly! I just want it to be here now! Though I feel like I'm emotionally ready, I am no where NEAR physically ready. Thanks to my amazing sister-in-law, Sarah, we have a good start on baby stuff but we have a long, long way to go. With 3 and a half months to go, I have less time in front of me than behind me which is... SCARY! I know the baby shower will be a huge help, but I'm a planner (almost at an OCD level) and I feel like everything needs to be done NOW, hence my anxiety!

On a different note, I had my 20 week ultrasound 2 weeks ago and everything looked good. She is measuring 2 days behind but that is normal according to my doctor. The doctor said she'd probably be a 6 or 7 pounder. Don't even think about joining the baby pool now that you know that bit of information! I go back on May 11th because when the tech was doing my ultrasound, Ally decided to face towards my back and she wouldn't turn over for anything. We didn't even get to see her face or more importantly for the anatomy scan, her heart. So wish us luck on the 11th! Hopefully she's not being stubborn and will show us what we need (and want!)

1 comment:

  1. Well, you ranted and vented and immediately went back to worrying about Ally. so that goes to show how much ranting you needed to get back on track. We're all behind you, around you and "in front" of you on this wonderful journey. Just remember how much you are loved and how fast time really does fly. Hang tough and bring us the most fabulous gift you can give the world!