Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Pregnancy. A Rant.

So it's been a little while since I've posted but only because there hasn't been anything significant happening lately. I am currently 5 and a half months pregnant and yes, I'm about to vent. You've been warned...

I thought that when this day finally came and I got what I've wanted for so long, I would enjoy every second of it. That being said, it couldn't be farther from the truth. I'm already starting to feel uncomfortable in my daily activities, i.e.: walking, bending over, sleeping, being awake... haha. I'm having pains I never new existed, sleep deprivation which I've never experienced, and anxiety like nothing I've ever known.

I know what you're thinking... "GIRL, you just WAIT until your baby is here!" Okay, okay! I get it! I know I'm not going to be sleeping, I know I'm going to be worried all the time, but that time is not right now. Right now, I'm dealing with these pregnancy issues and I'd appreciate it if you'd just let me be cranky! Thanks! : )

I know that the moment Ally arrives, our lives are going to instantly change forever. I know we're going to experience a love that we didn't even know was possible and I want that so badly! I just want it to be here now! Though I feel like I'm emotionally ready, I am no where NEAR physically ready. Thanks to my amazing sister-in-law, Sarah, we have a good start on baby stuff but we have a long, long way to go. With 3 and a half months to go, I have less time in front of me than behind me which is... SCARY! I know the baby shower will be a huge help, but I'm a planner (almost at an OCD level) and I feel like everything needs to be done NOW, hence my anxiety!

On a different note, I had my 20 week ultrasound 2 weeks ago and everything looked good. She is measuring 2 days behind but that is normal according to my doctor. The doctor said she'd probably be a 6 or 7 pounder. Don't even think about joining the baby pool now that you know that bit of information! I go back on May 11th because when the tech was doing my ultrasound, Ally decided to face towards my back and she wouldn't turn over for anything. We didn't even get to see her face or more importantly for the anatomy scan, her heart. So wish us luck on the 11th! Hopefully she's not being stubborn and will show us what we need (and want!)

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Before I Was a Mom...

I received this poem from my mother-in-law and I had to share it.

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never been puked on,
Pooped on,
Chewed on,
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body...
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment,
or the satisfaction of being a Mom ...
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mom.

- Author Unknown

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Holy Babies'R'Us!

I finally registered for my baby shower yesterday. I say "finally" because all of the women on my pregnancy forum have been done for weeks. I have no idea why because their showers will be around the same time as mine (end of June) and I felt out of the loop. Apparently everyone wants to be ahead of the game. Usually I'm one of those people but because I have no idea what I'm doing, it's taking me a while to get motivated. Plus I've been on Spring Break for a week and have gotten absolutely nothing accomplished.

That being said, I feel so relieved! Not that I've actually purchased anything but just getting an idea of what I need is calming. I registered at Babies'R'Us online because going into that store right now makes me anxious. There are thousands and thousands of items and it's so overwhelming.

After a review by Shannan and my mom, I think I have everything covered! Here's the problem... I need so much stuff! And I'm not talking the diaper genie, bottle warmer, bottle sterilizer, baby wipe warmer... I'm talking about the basic necessities! I'm hoping that the people attending the baby shower will not ignore the registry just to buy "cute newborn outfits" that Ally will probably be able to wear once and grow out of... Maybe I could put something on the invitation like, "necessities only".... No?

Speaking of "cute newborn outfits", my sister-in-law came over the other day with some really cute outfits for Ally! Note: these outfits are NOT newborn because she is a smart cookie!

So cute, right?!?! She is going to be the BEST Auntie ever! Sorry about the pictures... I was taking them quick on my phone to show my mom and was too lazy to take better ones. Also, I have NO idea why the layout of the pictures is so messed up but I can't figure out how to fix them... Why is blogger being so difficult today??

If you want to take a peek at my registry, here's the link: (If you notice something I'm missing, send me a comment! Thanks!)